"Who do you work for...you pretty little girl..."

Pressing words you might say. I'm watching Alias on OD TV and I am hooked already. I love Jennifer Garner or whatever her name is.

Anyway, yes I haven't posted in a while but guess what...I have a rare day off today hence why I am leisurely posting crazy drivel that just feeds my procrastinating urges.
Well I have to reretake my retakes. I'm not going to cry about it. No point. Just got to get on with it now.

Love life? HAH!! Nada, nil, niecha, non, pas existe. I don't know. Maybe I'm destined to be an old cat woman. I'm not sure that I have the time to care though.

Till next more positive entry


CBC

xx

Must be a change in the wind!

Well I haven't posted in while, partly because I've been revising and partly because I've been working! Ive been studying Bail and Police Powers today and hopefully I will be able to finish all the rest of Crime tonight. I'm sure I will...I HAVE to.

I just had to update my blog because so much has happened; I've just managed to catch my breath. First of all, I met up with an old male friend of mine (We'll call him Mr Literary) who I used to like (in that way) whilst at University. Was so nervous because it's been about a year but we got on fantastically as expected. So fantastically(*) in fact that coffee turned into drinks and drinks lasted till well into the night. *sigh* It was too late to get the train home so 'ended up' at his place and 'slept' in his spare room...AWH!

Spent the wee hours of the morning talking and getting close finally culminating in the most delicious good night kiss EVER. Admittedly I've not had many kisses to compare it to but it's the sort of kiss you get flashbacks of while you're doing the most mundane of tasks and it makes you grin like a soppy idiot for about half an hour. (I think his cat is a little traumatised by the scene it must have met walking in though...bwahahah!! Miaow!)

Needless to say, I am uncertain of things with Mr Literary and whether this was a one off or not. To make things worse, I can't do anything about it for a while as I have exams...Watch this space huh?

CBC
xx


(*)I realise that this may not be a proper word but work with me on this one!

'Semaine, Sans Toi' (et vingt-quatre plus)

(http://lolcats.com/view/9043/)

What a lovely morn. I'm hungry...Instead of working I'm watching reruns of Friends and Will and Grace. Noughty Noughty...as in NIL work done! Grrr.

Just to post a poem or three I like really. I'm working on a few at the moment and I know I'm amateurish compared to many but we all have to start somewhere right? My time is not today...LOL...well let's see.

One poem I quite like today is

'How Could I Have Doubted' by Leonard Cohen

I stopped looking for you
I stopped waiting for you
I stopped dying for you
and I started dying for myself
I aged rapidly
I became fat in the face
and soft in the gut
and forgot that I'd ever loved you
I was old
I had no focus, no mission
I wandered around eating and buying
bigger and bigger clothes
and forgot why I hated
every long moment that was mine to fill
Why did you even come back to me tonight
I can't even get off this chair
Tears run down my cheeks
I am in love again
I can live like this

Wow! Powerful imagery. I love Leonard Cohen's poetry (I have a book, well a compliation of his poetry that I had bought to give to Leo at Christmas Time but incidentally, decided to keep! Heh.) I like it when you read a poem that makes you feel and taste and smell the things being
described. Escapism. Precisely why I love Harry Potter so much. Well I'm being brave and posting a poem I literally came up with on the spot so let's see how this one goes...

'Cubicle' by CBC

Is it ironic that,
the one place that I feel safe
away from your knowing blue eyes
childlike giggles,
and your voice,
that voice-
is not mine to claim?

Locking the door,
taking a seat and
placing my bag on the grey tiled floor

(flitted with flecks of white, glass perhaps; I imagine them to be diamonds on a good day.
Which is rare.)

I exhale noisily.
I know that I must be quick. Just a minute
Or two, to reorganise thoughts scrambled, until

I have to leave that cubicle,
my temporary refuge,
awaiting its next tenant
but only for a moment, maybe.

I'm open to suggestions on that one! I made it up on the spot and I'm a bit nervous as it's the first one I've put on here. Hopefully lots more to come. I'm a beginner so be gentle :)

May just toddle off now as I was hungry in the beginnning and still am so will be sure to post soon!

CBC

xx

P.s. I've edited this post...so no legal proceedings can be brought against me in the future when this blog hits the tabloids. One can dream...

Musings of a Sunday Evening...

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Crumbs, well I haven't blogged in a while. Been rather neglectful of this blog lately. Not a huge amount to document as such. Been a quiet weekend this weekend. I've decided that I officially want to get back into crafting now...whether it be soap making or knitting, I just need to make something or paint something...you know?

Really want to try something new...expand my horizons a bit. I've been so desperate to go Fencing for the past 3 years but never been able to yet...until now! I'm going to bug those people until zey give me a chance dammit! En Garde!! Heh.

I love all the rain we've been having in London lately. Whether that makes me a weirdo or a hopeless romantique (which I suspect is the former more than the latter) I just love the rain. It's so romantic and makes me feel all cosy even though I'm being trampled by sweaty business men in ill -fitting shiny suits or being splashed by inconsiderate cab drivers, there's something quintessentially English about rain. Not that I'd really know...being from the Caribbean and all, but I hazard a guess at this.

Recently, I've been enjoying a lot of sushi too...my new found coolness :P. I love that crazy Wasabi rush that comes up and out of your nose when you least expect. Must make a mental note not to go on a date in a sushi restaurant...only Lord knows the freaky gurning that goes on when the Wasabi hits my nose! Leo's allergic to seafood that reminds me. Yes. I did say Leo...and before you ask...no it's still back to square 1. Nothing has changed. No better than the last time I posted. Overreact much Leo? Hmm, I can't work out men. I really can't. You try to be civil and they take it as a sign that you're coming onto them! Sheesh...though saying all this, I still try to be nice. That's my problem. I try. I care. I could be a bitch...(he would probably argue that I am already one, but we'll leave the mud-slinging to Jeremy Kyle shall we?) well more of a bitch about it. Who cares. I can hardly remember what happened. Well I can but I have more important things to stress about really. I just don't understand why he's being so totally weird about stuff. That's what bugs me. Not so much the "I can't do this anymore" thing...Hmm. I think it's okay to be scared but DON'T MAKE ASSUMPTIONS. Every lawyer knows not to rely on assumptions...he should know better...lol. RANT OVER!

Anyway, moving swiftly on, I've got a few good books lately. Well borrowed from the library but good as new. I'm reading "Jane Austen's Guide to Dating" by Lauren Henderson...both an educational and insightful read! Also I'm reading "Duppy Conqueror" by Ferdinand Dennis. Really good historical read encapsulating all the trials and prejudices faced by black people and tinged with traditions spanning Jamaica, Britain and Africa ultimately. I'm in the Britain phase at the moment. The 'Island Club' being the central location for the time being. So engrossed in that book! Got another book by John Grisham and one by Tess Gerritsen to get my fangs sunken into. Slurrrrrrrrrrrrp! :)

Had a "Mean Girls" night last night! I think every girl needs one now and then. Bit of teenage frolics and frippery with some man candy thrown in for good measure.

"Jason you are such a skeeze..."

"That is so fetch"

Mioaw! Not the best lines but one's which circle my head whilst I'm trying to consolidate PC (WPEP). Haha there's an abbreviation for you www!

Well my tea is getting cold. I must depart. I can't wait to get my hands on a copy of Schott Part 2 even though a source has informed me that it's not particularly new. I still want it!

Kitty say "Miao bye!"

CBC

xx

P.s. Poems I like coming soon!