Christmas is coming...the pig is getting fat...

YAY! So it's Christmas next week and my moods are up and down but I'm kind of happy. Shock horror...I'm becoming a bit of a happy bunny. Hopefully my bloggy will be updated more over Christmas but working 7 days a week, the last thing I am able to do is to post coherent passages recounting my ever exciting legal adventures. Pah

Well time is getting on and my eyelids are getting droopy! Not hitting the hay before I have a cherry bakewell or two and some herbal tea...you know, I've eaten 6 over the past two days! Eek. I shall be positively waddling into the new year!

Till next entry

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"Who do you work for...you pretty little girl..."

Pressing words you might say. I'm watching Alias on OD TV and I am hooked already. I love Jennifer Garner or whatever her name is.

Anyway, yes I haven't posted in a while but guess what...I have a rare day off today hence why I am leisurely posting crazy drivel that just feeds my procrastinating urges.
Well I have to reretake my retakes. I'm not going to cry about it. No point. Just got to get on with it now.

Love life? HAH!! Nada, nil, niecha, non, pas existe. I don't know. Maybe I'm destined to be an old cat woman. I'm not sure that I have the time to care though.

Till next more positive entry


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It's a little bit shit...

...this thing called life. Here I am, locked up in my room and in my pyjamas since 7.30 eating a jacket potato. My dad is still in hospital and will probably be there for a while yet. I am working my socks off and not really reaping the rewards. My love life is so far past non-existent, it's stupid. My finances are crap; whats the point?

I'm nervously awaiting my retake results and I think that I will positively scream if I have to re retake anything!

I need to sleep

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Always look on the bright side of life?

Sometimes I sit back and think that things couldn't possibly get any worse than they already are. Oh but they really can and have. Dad is in hospital and I don't know how long he will be in there. Meanwhile, I am as alone as ever and I'm having to work 7 days a week. FUN TIMES

I'm tired of this...surely I'm due a little ray of happiness some time soon?

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S-p-a-c-e-d o-u-t

Feel rather spaced out today. Not really sure why; just find myself staring into space a lot. Stronge! Hmm.

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Procrastination at its finest?

Well after having spent an entire 2 hours on facebook this morning, I can confidently announce that this has not been my most productive morning yet. However, it quickly dawned on me that I no longer need to be particularly productive as I've finished my exams and have no more studying to do.

I feel the past 15 years or so of studying has been a sort of comfort blanket for me. I seem to take solace in my work and studying; though I often grumble to myself about how tired I am. I think I'm feeling slightly at loss with what to do with myself now that Im finished. That is, provided I pass all these exams! Eeepenema!

Anyway, I think it's fair (in a paranoid woman's mind) to say that Mr Literary was a 'one-off'. Not one of my most intelligent moves ever but all in a growing woman's day huh? I think that's possibly ruined a perfectly civilised friendship now but I may just be growing in paranoia; we'll see the outcome of that.

LEGAL RANT TIME!

I remember during the LPC whilst studying Advanced Criminal Litigation and doing Road Traffic Offences and I came across something which, at the time, really annoyed me. I think it was something to do with the different penalities for Death by Dangerous Driving and Death by Careless Driving. As far as I can remember, the penalties for death by dangerous driving were far higher than that for careless driving. (Though I think that the offence of death by careless driving was relatively new or being reviewed). Anyway, my argument in class was that surely if the outcome is the same, i.e. DEATH, then what does it matter whether the driver of the car was driving carelessly or dangerously?!

I suppose in a really pedantic legal-brained way of looking at it would be to take the two terms 'dangerous' and 'careless' and consider their meanings. The term 'careless' seems to suggest that there was no intention to cause harm whereas 'dangerous' in this context seems to suggest that the person knew that the manner in which they were driving would cause some harm. I really don't know...I think as long as someone is killed the penalties should more or less be the same but I know it's not as simple as that.

The law is indeed "...a ass..."

Well I had better scuttle off and make myself more useful today. I suppose seeing as I have less work to do I can be more dedicated to my blogging now

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I really could do with a nice tea!

Retail Therapy...

Oh yes, today I did indeed shop until I dropped or developed a headache. All in all a good day but lack the ability to type from carrying heavy bags...PAH!

Till next entry

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CBC rises up through the hazy corporate veil of ignorance [non sequitur]

So in other words, I've finished Business Law! It wasn't as bad as last time to be honest. Sheesh! At least this time I was actually somewhat able to identify what the damned questions were asking! Haha.

I'm so tired now...I guess I just wanted to post to remind myself that I was still alive!

Off to bed with me until next post

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BLP...Business Law and Practice to you

*groan* the day of reckoning is here...well tomorrow in fact. My mind is completely blank. Let's see how this one goes.

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Wheezy like Sunday morning...

Heh, well this morning I am -a procrastinating...unintentionally mind. I've woken up with a banging headache after my day of fasting yesterday. Think I ate something a bit dodgy and it soon made an appearance! I appreciate this is a little too much information for which I apologise profusedly- I'm in a sharing mood.

I'm working on Business Law at the moment which is my final retake exam! Hurrah. It takes place on Tuesday so that just leaves me today and tomorrow to swot up for it. I'm getting there slowly, just really need to focus on my Revenue Law now and be able to distinguish my Tex/Mex shootout from my Russian Roulette...(you can tell Ive been revising Joint Ventures right?!) Also it's been fantastic to have Blonde Crime Fighter* helping me along the way by kicking me up the derriere to work. I've never studied with anyone before in this way and it's unbelievable how productive it has been to do so...I shall miss her dearly (Can tell Tuesday after exam will end up in pub...but I digress!)

No updates as such on Mr Literary apart from to say that he has decided that he needs time alone to be himself after being tied up in relationship after relationship. Whether that is a 'cop-out' or not, I guess I'll just have to wait it out. Och.

Back to the SGSs I go

Till next post

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* A lurvely law school bud who I've nicknamed

Must be a change in the wind!

Well I haven't posted in while, partly because I've been revising and partly because I've been working! Ive been studying Bail and Police Powers today and hopefully I will be able to finish all the rest of Crime tonight. I'm sure I will...I HAVE to.

I just had to update my blog because so much has happened; I've just managed to catch my breath. First of all, I met up with an old male friend of mine (We'll call him Mr Literary) who I used to like (in that way) whilst at University. Was so nervous because it's been about a year but we got on fantastically as expected. So fantastically(*) in fact that coffee turned into drinks and drinks lasted till well into the night. *sigh* It was too late to get the train home so 'ended up' at his place and 'slept' in his spare room...AWH!

Spent the wee hours of the morning talking and getting close finally culminating in the most delicious good night kiss EVER. Admittedly I've not had many kisses to compare it to but it's the sort of kiss you get flashbacks of while you're doing the most mundane of tasks and it makes you grin like a soppy idiot for about half an hour. (I think his cat is a little traumatised by the scene it must have met walking in though...bwahahah!! Miaow!)

Needless to say, I am uncertain of things with Mr Literary and whether this was a one off or not. To make things worse, I can't do anything about it for a while as I have exams...Watch this space huh?

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(*)I realise that this may not be a proper word but work with me on this one!

We shall not be...well shall not be moved

Interesting day today. I'm being sarcastic. It was a relatively dull day today. However, I have managed to get over my revision block and get some work done! Today I focused on Civil Lit. doing Foreign Jurisdiction and Witness and Expert Evidence. I really must get some more tabs so that I can get my CPR book in order though. It's really all over the place.

My plan for tomorrow is going to be to get cracking on Property Law for which I might go to the library. All depends on how bad my hayfever thing-a-ma-jig is tomorrow. Snuffling in the library is most annoying...if I say so myself!

My birthday is coming soon too but am so short of ideas, I don't know where to go or what to do!
Time will tell.

I'm trying to keep strong here (hence the title) but the universe is testing my patience these days. Haha. I know it sounds quite dramatic but hear me out. I'm really trying to forget this Leo guy...I think I'm doing pretty well on that front. However, over the past week or so it's been trying. Trying in the sense that I can't get him out of my head again. What is going on here? If this was just nothing (which it was) then why can't I forget? Why am I continually being reminded of him everything I do? Seriously. I'm happier now with my new job, meeting new people and just getting on with my life. This is seriously beginning to disturb me now. I need to ride this feeling out.

Till next entree

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Cor how time flies!

Well it's August already! I can hardly believe it! A lot has happened since my last post, mainly in the shape of me now having a job or two! Yup. I have 2 jobs. (1 now and second one starting in September) Yay me. I love my job. I work in a well known bookshop and my work colleagues are so lovely. I love meeting new people; it's so refreshing.

Just a quick post to kind of update my bloggy blog. Ooof! Revision is so slow at the mo though but glad the Training Contract Apps are out of the way mostly so I can totally focus this week.

Much love

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P.s. I have to join the gym after pay day!

Things are looking up

Well just as the title suggests, things are looking up today. I'm not a believer in horoscopes as such but I like reading them and laughing at how inaccurate they supposedly are.

This was my daily horoscope

Leo:
Your day - Jul 24 - Aug 23 An unexpected piece of news early in the day will bring some sunshine into your life. You are about to be offered the chance to have fun and to escape your usual responsibilities. You should milk this opportunity to the last drop! Ignore any niggles about you having so much else to do and kick everything negative out of your mind. A personal matter may need some close attention this evening. Call my Leo advice line 0905 506 6623 to hear why it may be time to re-evaluate a relationship if a friend or colleague takes it for granted you will always have time for them whenever they want you.

http://www.tiscali.co.uk/lifestyle/newage/horoscopes/daily_leo.html

About couple of hours after reading this, I received a call from one of the places I had applied for a job, asking me to come in for an interview tomorrow!

Last night I also joined Polyvore and I think it's safe to say that I am now addicted! Here's the link to my profile which features the sets that I have created:




My set of the day:



Loving it! Will tell of my interview plight tomorrow. Meanwhile, stay smiling!

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Vent up Pent up

Woke up this morning with a spring in my step! Watching 'The Wright Stuff' and brought the following story to my attention.


Victory for Christian registrar who refused to carry out gay ‘weddings’



A Christian registrar who was harassed and discriminated against after she refused to carry out same-sex civil partnership ceremonies has won a key legal battle.
Lillian Ladele, 47, said that she was treated like a pariah by colleagues at Islington council in North London after she said that she could not carry out the ceremonies as a matter of religious conscience.
An employment tribunal found that the council showed no respect for Ms Ladele’s rights “by virtue of her orthodox Christian beliefs”.
Employment lawyers said that while the case set no binding legal precedent, it would make councils much more likely to give weight to the religious views of employees.
The decision outraged gay rights campaigners, who said that it “sanctions the right of religious people to discriminate”.
Ms Ladele, who had held her £31,000-a-year job for almost 16 years, could receive thousands of pounds in compensation at a further hearing in September after the tribunal found that the behaviour of her colleagues had “the effect of violating Ms Ladele’s dignity, or creating an intimidating, hostile, degrading, humiliating or offensive environment”.
The tribunal decided that gay rights should not be allowed to “trump” the rights of those with religious beliefs and said that the council’s other registrars were able to provide a “first-class” service to same-sex couples without Ms Ladele’s involvement.
The ruling said that Islington council “placed a greater value on the rights of the lesbian, gay, bisexual and transsexual community than it placed on the rights of Ms Ladele as one holding an orthodox Christian belief”.
Ms Ladele, who is now expected to return to work, wept as she told the tribunal that her bosses ordered her to perform the ceremonies or face dismissal for gross misconduct. She said: “I felt harassed and victimised. I was being picked on on a daily basis.”
She added: “This is a victory for religious liberty, not just for myself but for others in a similar position. Gay rights should not be used as an excuse to bully and harass people over their religious beliefs.”
She was applauded last night by the Christian Institute, a Newcastle-based charity that funded her case, and the Evangelical Alliance. Don Horrocks, head of public affairs at the alliance, said: “This decision underlines that, despite some recent claims to the contrary, freedom of religious conscience must be protected by law in the same way as any other human right.
“We would call on local politicians to take note and live up to the challenge of this benchmark decision.”
Ben Summerskill, chief executive of the gay rights group Stonewall, said: “Public servants are paid by taxpayers to deliver public services. They shouldn’t be able to pick and choose who they deliver those services to. Doubtless 40 years ago there were moral objections to mixed-race marriages. Quite rightly such objections would no longer be entertained.”
Peter Tatchell, the human rights campaigner, said: “Lillian Ladele claims she was won a victory for religious liberty. No, she has not. She has won a victory for the right to discriminate.”
Islington council may appeal.



Article taken from Times Online (http://www.timesonline.co.uk/tol/comment/faith/article4312447.ece)




All I can say in comment really is good on her. Yes, gay rights are important. Yes, I believe in equal rights for everyone. Yes, I believe that someone's religious belief, if they feel strongly enough about it should not force them into doing something that they feel strongly against. The Human Rights campaigners claiming that "she has won a victory for the right to discriminate" are being ridiculous. Are there no other registrars that can perform the ceremony? Stupid stupid PC happy clappy people. Maybe this woman should just resign anyway instead of being in an environment where people have so little respect for her religious beliefs that they would ostracize her for them. However I must see the other side. It is somewhat exclusive and although I am biased as I am Christian myself, when I see a spade, I call it such and this is tinged with homophobia. (This is potentially the most contradictory thing I've ever said but there you go!)

I think if it was another religion it'd be different but Christianity is becoming such a 'black sheep' of a religion in recent times, it doesn't surprise me.


Another news story that has amused me no end is the story about the British woman facing imprisonment after being found having sex on a Dubai beach. On the one hand, if you know that it's a bit of a taboo in the country, compose yourself; when in Rome. On the other hand, it's the 21st century! Apparently people get arrested for kissing in public. Not that I'm the biggest fan of public displays of affection but this is extreme. However, on a more serious note, respect people's cultures and ways of life when in their country - don't like it then stay at home!


(http://www.timesonline.co.uk/tol/news/world/middle_east/article4300911.ece)




I'm now hungry. All that venting has built me up a bit of an appetite. Am going away for the weekend so probably won't post until next week! Toodle

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I'm still standing...

...yeh yeh yeh. I attempted to sing there. Did you notice that? I'm in a good mood today...ish. Went job hunting today with reasonable success in that there are actually jobs out there to be applied for. Now I just have to play the waiting game. I'm used to playing that game by now! (no allusions to love life intended!)

Had all my revision lectures yesterday thus making the seemingly mammoth task of going over 20 lectures and 30 SGSs for one topic less so. Pretty excited about getting all the highlighters out and going for it this time around; which admittedly is sad but its not all been a bed of roses over in Curious Cat ville. I really just need to sit down (tonight) and plan out my revision, digging out all the statute books and folders from under the bed and replacing them with the elective stuff. Kinda nervous about results now - 25 July...EEP! If I have to retake any more exams I will not be a happy kitty to put it politely.

Anyway, for now it's Hollyoaks and tea avec scone time so I'd better dash...OH NO! I forgot there aren't any more tea bags left. Darn it. This simply will not do. Can't quite be bothered to pop out now so shall have to endure withdrawal until tomorrow morning. I digress. Till next entry.

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p.s. I've strayed a little and changed fonts; spontaneity eh?

I just can't get you out of my head...

Well I've been rather neglectful lately and not posted my entries for work experience days 4 and 5. That's only because nothing out of the ordinary happened on those two days. I had a really good week soaking in all that journalistic goodness! Really made me think there as I am now contemplating doing some form of journalistic course so that I am qualified enough to do this on the side. The satisfaction that comes from seeing your name in print cannot be underestimated. *sigh*

Anyway, I've been really frustrated lately. No job, no cash, just lots of nothingness. This morning I woke up a bit upset as I'd had yet another dream about Leo last night. I've been so good lately. I haven't been thinking about him; just getting on with my life, enjoying meeting new people and just generally getting on with it. This is just like taking me back to square one again. I'm determined to flush this crap out of my system but it just seems to be resurfacing over and over. It's becoming a bit of a joke now seeing as things ended way back in November. It's just gotten progressively worse since to the point where I really think I'm trying to trick myself into thinking I don't care anymore (and failing miserably).

Im just giving up on this now. I don't know what to do...ARGHHHHHH

Goodness sake, this is really stressing me out

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P.s. Job hunting next week!

Work Experience: Day 3

Day 3 and I'm published!! I would post a link to the article but it would identify me and I'd like to remain anonymous but I'm so proud of it. My first and hopefully not last, published article. Had a relatively low key day apart from the writing. I'm going through my training contract list tonight. I just feel so tired. Lazy bum!

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Work Experience: Day 2

Today I got my first press release and had to chase up an interview with a very important person within a Law Firm. I got to compile my own questions, speak to PR people and it's all a very different world to what I'd ever imagined it to be. The journalists seem to go to a lot of parties and socialise a lot. Not a bad thing I guess.

Then I worked on updating a law guide for the magazine, adding to a list of defined legal terms which students may come across but not be aware of the meaning. I know it probably sounds a bit dull but its all part and parcel of the running of a magazine really isn't it?

I went to a semi Magic Circle firm with the editor of the magazine I'm doing work experience with and sat in on a meeting with the graduate recruitment team. It's such a culture shock and eye-opener as to how these huge city law firms operate. It's not nearly as scary as I had anticipated and it has confused me a bit as I am now thinking of applying to slightly larger firms now and taking my chances! I feel as though Ive been at the magazine for years now even though it's only been two days!

I never realised how tiring it is commuting in and out of the City on a daily basis in the heat. Quite funny really seeing as I've been studying in London for the past 4 years now and having to do the commute.

Let's see what happens tomorrow. Might have my story published then!

Exciting...roll on Day 3

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P.s. I still need a job for the summer...it's actually getting ridiculous now

Work Experience: Day 1

Today was my first day of work experience and I am so excited! Very tired but it has given me a lot to think about. I'm seriously considering a career in legal journalism on the side now or maybe until I get a training contract. My day today consisted of telephoning a number of universities on a database and interviewing the law departments about the circulation of the magazine. I've spoken to people from Wales and most of the universities around the country! I also got to sit in on two mini meetings. It's all hustle and bustle in this place! The people are all very nice and laid back and I feel so comfortable already.

I can't wait to start writing tomorrow and plus I get the opportunity to sit in on a meeting with a Magic Circle firm. Good times.

Off to bed with me I say...

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Saturday Night Fever...

...or boredom more like!

Had Business Accounts today. Didn't go so badly but then it's hard to tell with figures isn't it?
Feel a bit at a loss today. No money, no job, no Leo (haha, wait...scratch that last bit). Well, yeh, no Leo. I've been thinking how much I miss having someone to talk to about nothing. After having a really good conversation with Jenny Legal*, it got me thinking about how much I too would like to have someone to talk to about any or everything and just feel at ease with myself. I suppose taking refuge in this blog is one thing but nothing beats actual human contact. I just sometimes feel that I throw myself into my work and just shut myself away from people and then when I've gotten out of the work-sleep-eat routine, I'm virtually a social outcast. Something's got to give eventually though because my social life sucks at the moment.

Oh and did I mention that I found Leo's number again? I did. I still have it in my possession. I'm not going to do anything silly with it. I won't mention the discovery again.

I'm having an early ish night tonight. Laundry day is tomorrow! What fun

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*A friend and fellow legal professional in the making!

*yawn and stretch*

Feel so much better today compared to yesterday. Wonder if that was some conspiracy to get me not to study as much as I should??

Bring on the productivity aujourd'hui...

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Home at last...

After my previous post from law school, I had to leave shortly after that. My little headache had become a full blown migraine. I fell asleep on the train with my mouth slightly ajar. I could feel it open but my head hurt so much that it seemed to relieve the pain. A very brave man decided to brave the slobber and sat next to me. Poor thing, bless him, it must be catching because within like 10 minutes he was 'catching flies' also! HAHA. I'm more powerful than I thought. Lock up your sons, one glance at me and you TOO will be 'catching flies'...mwahaha

My head seems to be easing a bit after spending the past 3 hours in bed curled up in a ball. Maybe I can squeeze another hour of business accounts in before I go to bed? Perhaps I'll get a cup of tea, get an early night and then get up at 6 and work solidly through my format. To think I failed Business Accounts by 4 marks makes me all foamy at the mouth!

"Que sera sera ...whatever will be will be..."

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Business Accounts...again

So I am NYC in Business Accounts and so have to do the exam again this Saturday! Getting to grips with the format and I'm slightly reluctant to say that I am enjoying it...bar Company Accounts. That ruddy Analysis of Reserves 'calculation' is driving me slightly loopy but I'll get there, eventually.

I thought it would be a good idea to pop into law school to revise today (which is where I am now) and it's deadly quiet except for the occasional BVC student popping in for their results. I unfortunately have a banging headache and just can't concentrate for very long. See how much longer I last here today.

Elective exams are finally over. I am a bit worried about Private Client law to be very honest, partly because of the life interest trust created by will and the taxation of that estate in that exam. I suspect that I may have gotten my trusts a bit muddled up but I shall not dwell.

Didn't post before but managed to get myself a week's work experience with a Legal Magazine in London which I am very excited about. This may be my bit on the side if and when I qualify; Legal Journalism. I just can't get enough of writing, albeit the fact that I may not be particularly good at it or that anyone reads my writing! But anyway, I am really really excited and may need to buy myself a new pair of trousers and a new blouse for next week (any excuse to go shopping of course!)

Well now that I am finished with the SGS prep and so on, I can get cracking with my applications for training contracts seeing as I don't have one yet. I have seen a few firms which I am really interested in so it's just a matter of sitting down and getting on with the applications now. That and getting a part time job. How hard is it to get a job folding and selling clothes and shoes...I'm training to become a solicitor for goodness sake!

My motto is nothing before it's time and that everything happens for a reason so who knows what the coming months will bring...

Till next post

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I had a dream...

...about Leo last night. That's a first. Before it used to be like thinking about him at odd times when my mind wasn't occupied or if I saw him or something that reminded me of him. But dreaming about him especially when I wasn't thinking about him AND I have exams, is NOT encouraging! I don't get what the dream was about really, it was the strangest thing. I can't remember where we were, what was going on or anything just that he had his arm around my shoulders and then the next minute we were dancing, dancing, dancing...and then other 'things'. Strange! Now you tell me what that has to do with the administration of an estate; which is what was on my mind before I went to bed last night!

Today I also did a silly thing...I've ordered my first item from a television shopping channel. Goodness me! I know it'll probably be a load of rubbish but for some reason I was in a spontaneous mood. I suspect it to be all that dream action that occurred in the last 24 hours! HAHA

Well, Im going to get me a cup of tea to calm my nerves and get back to the administration. Aiming for another 2 lectures by tonight...maybe get some will drafting notes done

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"I can feel it coming in the air tonight...oh Lord..."

I say "Yell-o", you say "Yell-er"...

So had my Family Law exam today. Thank goodness that's over but it wasn't half bad. That ancillary relief stuff really got me a bit today. There's just so much information to go through with those Form Es and then applying that to the fact pattern as well as making up a package for the client and calculating whether or not there was a 50/50 'Yardstick of equality' split. Oh my goodness. That was just one of four collossal questions! Hmm.

If only I had applied this study method to all my other exams.I think going through all the SGS's and redoing exercises really does help the information to stick. I arrived 2 minutes before the start of the exam today! What a close shave! I don't intend to repeat that performance.

I think I've found my store of choice to shop in when I start working...TM Lewin! Popped in there in passing today and I'm in love with the gorgeous stripey shirts and the like. In particular, I would love a couple of those shirts with the cuffs to add cufflinks to. *sigh* So many pretty cufflinks to invest in!

I'm so mentally tired...1 down, 3 more to go this month!

Aieeeeee. Back to the PC (WPEP) encore.

Till next post

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CBC goes green!

It's been a long week. Not that I've done enough to justify me saying that, but it feels it. Just about to go to revise for Family Law on Thursday but just to add that I feel really proud of myself today! I took my environmentally friendly, 'jute' bag to do the food shopping today, walked half an hour to the supermarket and half and hour or so back. Although the food was in danger of spilling all over the place, at least there were no more nasty plastic bags cluttering up the place. I feel better for it. Thighs of steel baby! (for today)

Now all I need to do is get a few hours in before I check out whether this Big Brother malarkey is worth wasting my time on. Is it wrong to like a man with a beard...(well stubble anyway).Beards can be shaven...but ugliness on the inside cannot. That's my justification and I'm sticking to it. I just saw Rupert Everett on telly sporting a spiffing beard type thing. Hm

Au Revoir

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A bit of an anti-climax...

Feeling a bit down in the dumps today. Yesterday was the last day of term / law school and it just ended...BAM...thank you very much, I'll have those locker keys back...BYE! Felt like a horrible break up or something! Very strange. No "friends" around to wish good luck, good bye or good riddance to. Very odd state of affairs indeed. Ohh well, have to swot up for PCFS on Monday...endless fun

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The next chapter is almost in sight

Coming to the end of the LPC now. Thoroughly enjoyed it to say the least. Haven't got a training contract yet BUT I am pacing myself on that front...tarting up my CV and getting a bit more experience before I dive head-first into a legal career. I guess I have my age on my side...that and the fact that I havent had a break from education since the age of 5 (I am now 21 going on 22) so I think I can take a little break before it gets heavy.

I think the mind is such a powerful tool. I'm feeling like I'm really getting over Leo now. I realised today actually. Months ago when the existence of Fee-line (Leo's girlfriend) came to my attention during a class, I thought that 'event' that would really help me get over this thing once and for all would be to see them together. I thought about this 'event' over a period of time and Lo and freeking Behold it happened last week. Sod's law/coincidence, I don't know what it was but I do know that it was the best thing that's happened to me since all this crap. Months of being silly and 'caught up' in this bloke and then seeing them together, I realised that I really didn't care about him as much as I thought I did. What a relief...Fee-line seemed a pleasant girl so as I said before, I'm so happy for them (without getting carried away of course). Finally, CBC can move on!

Good Night

Till next time

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P.s. I'm getting a bit annoyed by the apprentice now but again, law of the sod means that I can't stop watching the darned thing!

A kiss from a policeman

Just watching 'My Family'. I love Robert Lindsay. He's such an awkward, politically incorrect bumbling so-and-so...but I love his character all the same. Quiet, reasonably interesting day today. Made some notes on Sexual Offences and Forensic Evidence today so I feel slightly more productive.

On to the Friday night entertainment...dans la chambre

Television bien sur!

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Tax, tax and more tax

Man I love tax. IHT, CGT, Income tax *sigh* can you sense my enthusiasm? Haha, no it's not that bad really. Lovely day in Londres today...apart from the abundance of flesh! My goodness, a bit of sun and everyone goes a bit crazy. Hey, I don't blame them...it's not very often the weather is this nice in Britain but still, is denim hotpants really appropriate for law school? Maybe I'm just bitter because I can't get my legs out. Heh.

Aie! Advocacy assessment next Friday. Better get rehearsing and dust my suit off. I love seeing the guys all dressed up in their suits! Saw Leo in his today...and did a mini double-take (nearly walking into the barriers and he looked amused, or so I think since my eye sight isn't what it was!) I'm starting to wage bets on who speaks to the other first now. It's been AGES! Me, 20-1 anyone? Bloody hope not.

Well, I think I'm going to put the kettle on...

CBC

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P.s. This blog is painting me out to be a bit of a tea addict now. Couldn't be more true!

"The moronisisation of TV is complete"

I love LBC! I heard this line on LBC last night. The presenter whose name I can't quite remember...Clive Bull? Iain Lee? used the phrase to describe the changing face of television. He was remarking on the fact that in the past, British Television and newsreaders, relied on one man (or woman) sitting down delivering a piece to camera. Now he says the frantic hand gestures and funky camera angles are used to correspond with our alleged shortening attention spans and growing stupidity. He reckons that we are being taken to be morons...hence the phrase ..."the moronisisation of TV is now complete..." Love it!

I find it pretty funny that being a potential lawyer...well I like to think so anyway... that I rarely post about my legal adventures at law school. I guess I've been slightly inspired by the fictional "Baby Barista" account of a trainee barrister on Times Online. I also saw how many legal brains also published blogs and got thinking...hey, why don't I also talk more about my legal life? Can't say I'm satisfied with my recent set of law school examinations...nonetheless, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger right?

I feel I should apologise for my last post. I was in a different place. You know...reminiscing is sometimes a good thing but I think I did that a little too much that day and so brought a whole lot of my feelings for Leo back. Then today whilst sitting on the train on the way back from law school, Ipod in my ears, it got me thinking...obviously I just need to get a grip on the situation. It doesn't take a rocket scientist to realise when someone wants nothing to do with you regardless of what you've done (or not done). Not everyone will like you and you just have to get on with it. This folks, I will have to accept in relation to this boy. Besides...this really won't do in my quest to become a successful lawyer.

Anyway, I am saddened by this Chelsea shooting story regarding the barrister involved in the shootout yesterday. Just reinforced the sheer stress faced by young bright people in the legal profession and was slightly unnerving. Surely everyone will deal with their problems in a different way but it is really really sad that a young professional like this man succumbed to the pressures of life at the top...This quote sums it up really,

“I think a lot of people working in the law will see this as another
barrister who has cracked under the pressure.”

Makes one think twice really...what am I getting myself into?!

CBC

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[You can read the article online at :http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/1934958/Chelsea-shooting-Barrister]

Get out of my head...

Oh Gosh...I feel crappy feelings rearing their ugly heads again. I'm so annoyed at myself! I thought I was getting better but to put it politely...I'm feeling shite now. Funny how I felt fine earlier this morning. Now I fear I may be slipping into this thing again. I will fight it...I MUST.

It's just ruddy annoying that one person can have so much control over your emotions even when you don't think they do...and they probably don't think they do. Seriously, I feel like I'm going mad. Like I'm going to burst out either crying (unlikely) or have an outburst (more likely) when I next see Leo. Jeebus. I just don't know what to do anymore. Get out of my head please. Stop intercepting my thoughts especially when I'm trying to work.

Sometimes I wish I had never met him...then again, I'd never have known what it was like to be happy in the truest sense of the word; even if for the shortest while.

Argh!

Back to work. I fear this is my most angsty post. I hope that this will be the last ounce of angst I inflict. Maybe a nice cup of tea will have a calming effect...

CBC

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'Semaine, Sans Toi' (et vingt-quatre plus)

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What a lovely morn. I'm hungry...Instead of working I'm watching reruns of Friends and Will and Grace. Noughty Noughty...as in NIL work done! Grrr.

Just to post a poem or three I like really. I'm working on a few at the moment and I know I'm amateurish compared to many but we all have to start somewhere right? My time is not today...LOL...well let's see.

One poem I quite like today is

'How Could I Have Doubted' by Leonard Cohen

I stopped looking for you
I stopped waiting for you
I stopped dying for you
and I started dying for myself
I aged rapidly
I became fat in the face
and soft in the gut
and forgot that I'd ever loved you
I was old
I had no focus, no mission
I wandered around eating and buying
bigger and bigger clothes
and forgot why I hated
every long moment that was mine to fill
Why did you even come back to me tonight
I can't even get off this chair
Tears run down my cheeks
I am in love again
I can live like this

Wow! Powerful imagery. I love Leonard Cohen's poetry (I have a book, well a compliation of his poetry that I had bought to give to Leo at Christmas Time but incidentally, decided to keep! Heh.) I like it when you read a poem that makes you feel and taste and smell the things being
described. Escapism. Precisely why I love Harry Potter so much. Well I'm being brave and posting a poem I literally came up with on the spot so let's see how this one goes...

'Cubicle' by CBC

Is it ironic that,
the one place that I feel safe
away from your knowing blue eyes
childlike giggles,
and your voice,
that voice-
is not mine to claim?

Locking the door,
taking a seat and
placing my bag on the grey tiled floor

(flitted with flecks of white, glass perhaps; I imagine them to be diamonds on a good day.
Which is rare.)

I exhale noisily.
I know that I must be quick. Just a minute
Or two, to reorganise thoughts scrambled, until

I have to leave that cubicle,
my temporary refuge,
awaiting its next tenant
but only for a moment, maybe.

I'm open to suggestions on that one! I made it up on the spot and I'm a bit nervous as it's the first one I've put on here. Hopefully lots more to come. I'm a beginner so be gentle :)

May just toddle off now as I was hungry in the beginnning and still am so will be sure to post soon!

CBC

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P.s. I've edited this post...so no legal proceedings can be brought against me in the future when this blog hits the tabloids. One can dream...

Musings of a Sunday Evening...

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Crumbs, well I haven't blogged in a while. Been rather neglectful of this blog lately. Not a huge amount to document as such. Been a quiet weekend this weekend. I've decided that I officially want to get back into crafting now...whether it be soap making or knitting, I just need to make something or paint something...you know?

Really want to try something new...expand my horizons a bit. I've been so desperate to go Fencing for the past 3 years but never been able to yet...until now! I'm going to bug those people until zey give me a chance dammit! En Garde!! Heh.

I love all the rain we've been having in London lately. Whether that makes me a weirdo or a hopeless romantique (which I suspect is the former more than the latter) I just love the rain. It's so romantic and makes me feel all cosy even though I'm being trampled by sweaty business men in ill -fitting shiny suits or being splashed by inconsiderate cab drivers, there's something quintessentially English about rain. Not that I'd really know...being from the Caribbean and all, but I hazard a guess at this.

Recently, I've been enjoying a lot of sushi too...my new found coolness :P. I love that crazy Wasabi rush that comes up and out of your nose when you least expect. Must make a mental note not to go on a date in a sushi restaurant...only Lord knows the freaky gurning that goes on when the Wasabi hits my nose! Leo's allergic to seafood that reminds me. Yes. I did say Leo...and before you ask...no it's still back to square 1. Nothing has changed. No better than the last time I posted. Overreact much Leo? Hmm, I can't work out men. I really can't. You try to be civil and they take it as a sign that you're coming onto them! Sheesh...though saying all this, I still try to be nice. That's my problem. I try. I care. I could be a bitch...(he would probably argue that I am already one, but we'll leave the mud-slinging to Jeremy Kyle shall we?) well more of a bitch about it. Who cares. I can hardly remember what happened. Well I can but I have more important things to stress about really. I just don't understand why he's being so totally weird about stuff. That's what bugs me. Not so much the "I can't do this anymore" thing...Hmm. I think it's okay to be scared but DON'T MAKE ASSUMPTIONS. Every lawyer knows not to rely on assumptions...he should know better...lol. RANT OVER!

Anyway, moving swiftly on, I've got a few good books lately. Well borrowed from the library but good as new. I'm reading "Jane Austen's Guide to Dating" by Lauren Henderson...both an educational and insightful read! Also I'm reading "Duppy Conqueror" by Ferdinand Dennis. Really good historical read encapsulating all the trials and prejudices faced by black people and tinged with traditions spanning Jamaica, Britain and Africa ultimately. I'm in the Britain phase at the moment. The 'Island Club' being the central location for the time being. So engrossed in that book! Got another book by John Grisham and one by Tess Gerritsen to get my fangs sunken into. Slurrrrrrrrrrrrp! :)

Had a "Mean Girls" night last night! I think every girl needs one now and then. Bit of teenage frolics and frippery with some man candy thrown in for good measure.

"Jason you are such a skeeze..."

"That is so fetch"

Mioaw! Not the best lines but one's which circle my head whilst I'm trying to consolidate PC (WPEP). Haha there's an abbreviation for you www!

Well my tea is getting cold. I must depart. I can't wait to get my hands on a copy of Schott Part 2 even though a source has informed me that it's not particularly new. I still want it!

Kitty say "Miao bye!"

CBC

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P.s. Poems I like coming soon!

Unproductive and drowsy

Ugh...too full. I've eaten too much and now I'm drowsy despite having a ridiculous amount of work to do! Hopefully a Red Bull will perk me up this evening. I need to have another 3 topics covered by tonight at least...

Eeee! Three down, one to go

CBC

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The French Mystery

Received an anonymous text message yesterday. In French. Heavens knows who from. Probably wrong number. Looked like it was from Australia or New Zealand but that's merely speculatory. I have a funny feeling about this though...

Anyway, back to the books

A bientot ;)

CBC

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Waiting for the kettle to boil

In the time that it takes for my kettle to boil, I have stolen a few moments to write. I'm on a study break. Relief that the first exam yesterday is out of the way. I find exams so physically draining as well as mentally. I know it'll be worth it in the end...well one would hope!

It's cold today and that's just on the inside!

Saw Leo yesterday. Not a flutter in my stomach. I must be mad. I must be healing.

That click tells me that the kettle has in fact boiled and my writing time for now is up. Will be sure to return if anything more eventful happens...which is unlikely. ACTUALLY! There is something. Minor...

CBC

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Rhubarb and Custard...

...is what is currently lodged in my mouth as I type (of the boiled sweet variety). I'd like to say it reminds me of my childhood but it couldn't be further away from the truth. In reality, growing up in the Caribbean would have meant that treats for me would be yummy fresh fruits, Tamarind balls, guava cheese and my favourite treat of all. FUDGE!!! Mmmmm.

In a bit of a reminiscent mood today.

Should really be studying at the moment but I find my thoughts being drawn to all things West Indian (or Caribbean...as people these days like to call it much to my dismay. Same Difference)

I love listening to the radio. You know? Not those music stations necessarily...I particularly like the discussion programmes. At the moment LBC 97.3 is my favourite. In the Caribbean there used to be a programme called ' Jook Bois' conducted almost entirely in Creole. A French/ English fusion. Funny, funny man. If only I understood it more. Sometimes I feel like there's a French person inside of me waiting to jump out! Alors!

Reminds me a bit of a date I went on with Leo. I think it was the first. On the Tube on the way back home...Bakerloo line I think it was. Both a little fecked after a few (me more than him because let's face it; I'm a lightweight) and were engaging in a little playful word foreplay in French.

Vous voulez du cafe monsieur? Ou est la gare? La gare est pres du boulangerie madame.

(you get the picture. cute.)

We thought we were so cool taking the Michael Barrymore out of the French accent until a couple sat opposite us started talking in French!! Shit! Haha. Both realised at the same time. Shuffled into the empty seats nearby, away from their disapproving French glances avec grande vitesse!

(That was the same night I nearly had an accident when I thought he was going to kiss me on the busy Tube. Turned out to be a kiss on the cheek! Good times :D)

Why am I so shy? PDA scares me a bit. All that saliva; especially of the stringy sort. Yeuch! Recipe for disaster really. Though I did kinda do it. Does that make me a hypocrite? Haha. I bloody love(d) it really. Really should get over being so self-conscious though.

Miss his cute little 'blushing face' sometimes. Back to the fishing gear it seems!


CBC

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The Day After Valentine's Day

Okay so it was Valentine's Day yesterday...also known as VD. Since when was it cool and trendy to abbreviate the most romantic day of the year to that of Veneral Disease? Anyway so I cant say I'm surprised not to receive any valentines. 21 years valentine-less why should now be any different? I'm not too bothered to be honest and the day went quite normally as was expected! I guess I don't get it because I'm not a part of a couple. UGH anyway, at least it's over now.

I half had a silly dream that Leo would have made a crazy romantic gesture and called me or something. Yeh right. It's funny, I still do think about him from time to time. Not as much as I used to and not as strongly but still do. He had a recent bereavement and for some reason I felt really sorry for him. Damn my gender...always thinking about others! I haven't spoken to him for about a month now...maybe more and I think I've forgotten what he sounds like. Well, nonetheless life goes on.

Went to get my hair done today. Was nice to get some fresh if not ARCTIC air on the body after 2 days of hibernation. Bumped into a friend at the bus stop - though have the suspicion that if I didn't say hello, they wouldnt either...weird. No skin off my nose. AHA!

Had migraines for the past two days now with this stress. Anyone reading this considering a career in law, think carefully about it. It's no walk in the park. Just hope I can remember my leasehold from my freehold in time for Tuesday. I'm sure to bump into Leo then too. So glad I haven't got this facebook/msn thing to distract me anymore!

Still, everytime I go past Shepherd's Bush Station on the Central Line in the mornings I can't help but smile...

CBC

The Beginning

Seeing as this is my first entry and I'm relatively new to the blogging scene, I really haven't a clue what to write. Maybe I should just set the scene a bit; as in the purpose of my starting up this blog. Well, I'm quite an observant person. I like to watch the world go by and the people in it. It's funny how little we can actually see when we are caught up in the daily rat race that is life, so much so that we miss the little things. I like to write about random things...my way of getting down the swarm of thoughts in my head. I appreciate a lot of what I write may be non sequitur and seem a little disjointed but doesn't that just make it more interesting?

I should probably add that I'm a 21 year old female, single (newly but not bitterly I hasten to add!) and have a great love of all that is feline, domesticated or otherwise - hence the name!

so onto the blogging!
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I'm curious about many things, the dating game being one of them. One of my not-so-new found interests. Oh yes. Men. Guys. Dudes or whatever you call them in whatever part of the world you are from. They are very curious creatures aren't they? I'm sure if I could decipher them, even a fraction of a percent, I'd be a very rich woman!

As I write this, I'd just recently had my heart trashed.. I shall not mention his name. I will call him LEO. I will spare him the embarrassment of having his private life blogged about despite the fact that he too is an avid blogger (although I am currently unaware of his alias!). I don't know what I'd dare call what we had really. It wasn't a 'relationship' as such; merely a few dates and a bit of "Ooo, err... Missus" . Ha ha, no funny business (yet) but after several frogs at 21 I did think he was somewhat special. He'd have had to have been really to have looked at me twice...well I jest but for illustrative purposes. However, my new found happiness was soon to be dashed when things were called off. How strange! Not the fact that things were called off because I know only too well that happiness comes and goes but it was the really BAD excuse he used for this. I'm a firm believer that up -front honesty is better than a bad excuse! Sheesh. So why months later am I, the Curious Black Cat, still talking about him? He's moved on tres quick so why can't I?!

And so that's what I'm curious about this blessed Sunday: How is it that men are able to move on so much quicker than women? Or is this just a gross generalisation?

As much as I am retraining my brain that I'm over this, I'm not sure that it's listening to me. Like a stubborn stain that refuses to budge no matter how much elbow grease you put into it. As a result I have made a new friend in chocolate. Yes chocolate. Why ever not? My ever- expanding waistline would object but hey...

A bit of chocolate each day keeps the sadness at bay I say...

CBC